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♥ Friday, November 30, 2007

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After 1 night's sleep, fel better already.
guess i was just in a mood swing yesterady.
so wierd lols

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today i was supposed to go to the Jurong Entertainment Centre. but i didn't feel like it
and plus i woke up late coz i slept late last night.
like 1 am.
the latest i ever slept was 3am.
doing the freerice thing again.
i a bit wu liao right?
nothing to do mah.
Wendy is out.(she lives very very near me)
Ellen and few others are at jec
so boring at home lor.
went to play with bunny just now.
you know, i alwasy thought tt animals area very pitiful.
becoz they cannot tok.
watever they wabt they cannot get.
whereas human force them to do stuff.
like stay at the back yard.
i didn't force my bunny lah
mummy did.
sobs...
poor bunny.
and nocturnal animasl are also so pitiful.
in the day when they are resting, the sun is always out shinkning as brighly as ever.
and in the night when they are active, it's ll dark around.
Very long time never go ppl's blog already.
and i hate this spects...
how did i ever get myself into this mess?!
anyways, listening to runaway by Avril Lavigne .
and also btw, today i went to http://www.truefriends.com/
the internet explorer couldn't find that page and i went to jojo's blog and it also coudn't be seen. just a blank spot with an red "X" on the left hand side.
ok. i promise i'll post later. and btw, do u like the song
Bad Day by Daniel powter.
i ove it a lot.
i like the song lyrics,
the melody.
it's so nice
hahax.

i really miss Charity 6...
i miss mrs lee.
yesterday, i dreamed tt i was back in charity 6 vlassroom again, listening to mrs lee teaching the class.
i wish i will never wake up from tt dream lor.
live in Charity 6 forever!
which is impossible.
ok bye...

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7:04 PM

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Hey u guys....
here sitting in front of the computer, i am so dam bored...
i'm at www.freerice.com
i recommend it to u guys.
heps build vocabulary and give many unfortuante ppl a chance to eat.
instead of starve to death.
u must be thinking how right?
well i am so not telling u
:)
u just have to find it out yourself then!ok
gtg sleep now...
*shudders*
i hate the dark...
it's like the 2nd week i am sleeping totally alone...
used to sleeping with mommy.
wierd right?
oh btw i am supposed to go sleep.
so byes!
:)

oh and i forgot to say,i donated 2200grains of rice!
but i didn't spend a oeeny!
go check it ou!
bye:)

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7:23 AM

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Today went to TLL with Ellen.
we were in different class.
dunno y
today both of us little super unhyper...
At first ...
b4 class...

After class...

In the car...

Now...

What is Happening?!
i kinda didn't eat any sad pills!?
wierd colour huh....
Anyways, dun really feel like posting.
i'm sorry
bye...

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5:02 AM

♥ Thursday, November 29, 2007

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Heys everyone! just changed blog skin-
Mary had a little lamb
it means that the lamb is deadO_O
so sad. actually, i thought i would be more apropiate tt
Mary has a bunbun!
lols
funny?
not funny..?
amd i too hyper today?
amd i takling too fast?
>.<.
i think i a bit kinda too hyper today. gotta chill!
hey tt face has a mole
(>.<)
tt's better
:D
An i hope u like the song
Kiss the girl by Ashely tistale.
This is the only song i like tt is sang by her.
i don't really like other songs....
yuk, ugly colour.
let's change.
this is....not it's not much better
This... nah
yays. this is much better.

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(This picture is really inappropriate huh?) wadever,
so i went

with Wendy just now, and i fell on my butt.(we;ll wat else? leg?)
it was so pain. At first i couldn't stand up. My back felt a bit numb. I thought i had damaged the spinal cord. But,yaeah then i didn't . Of coz.
an after we bathed in the showeroom provided, we went up to the 15th storey, and snuggled in the bed and read archie Comics!
(i bought them in the book store in kk went i went this morning ot do the last 2nd check up for my arm)
well only i was reading. She was busy sending msgs. beside us is a big bowl, we were eating kokocrunch. and while i was reading i just kept eating and eating and eating. i didn't even know tt was eating!
then after abt 5 to 7 min, i reached into the bowl and found nothing. coz we ate finish. OMG!

She had to go home, so soon it was 7.30pm, she went home. then i went to the livign room to eat

and watch tv with my mom.

then watch until half waym i suddenly said that i wanted to use com so i go use lor.

then now blogging lor. it's abt 21.22

i started using a tabt 8 pm.

i spent so much time blogging. i got kinda headache now.

i heard the kiss the gurl so many times tt i feel like puking le.

so anyways, wan to go read archie comic and i had to do finish tomolo's tuition work s i have to go now! byes!

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4:09 AM

♥ Wednesday, November 28, 2007

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haiz... so sian....been sending ppl e-cards
that's right,

e-cards

Christmas...is supposed to be full of life..

why am i feeling so glum then?haiz...

anyways, something wierd happened just now.

was shopping with my mom at West mall just now>>>

we happened just to pass by so we decied to go in. Anyways it's raining heavily.

i was toking to my mom, then i suddenly had this wierd feeling...

i suddenly felt very angry and something like that.

it's like if someody's rude to you, u may just bite his head off...

or...>.

just kidding lah. i not so bad one.

anyways, it's just liek satan's within me*correct spelling*

oh and i did something stupid.

go to grade 2 of guitar by next year febuary(possible?)
be MORE cheerful.
be able to read finish a book in german which is mend for babies.
Play the stupid piano everyday.*oh and of coz guitar too*
go play wit bunny everyday.*btw that reminds me. gtg now! Have to play with him!^^
finish left p6 assesments
go swim everyday
And Have fun!!!!!!!

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1:04 AM

♥ Thursday, November 22, 2007

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hey guys can i ask you a favour?
becoz i am going overseas, i cannot leave my bunny at home.
so if anyone is willing, can you taking care of my bunbun?
preferably ppl with big houses

a garden.not really a garden lah, but an enclosed area with grass. becoz although it is litter trained, i'm afraid that it would coz trouble to you ppl
thanx a lot in advance.

Hello! I am Bun Bun

please take care of me!

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2:52 AM

♥ Monday, November 19, 2007

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just posted finish

i felt so bad....

coz i did something wrong...

shouldn't have told....

izit too late to stop?

i hope that person doesn't tell....

or there will be an misunderstanding....

and it would be my fault...

i'm so sorry to who i may concern....

pls dun be angry....

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8:08 PM

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online now....
have been online since10am
now is 11.32am...
so lonely....
just changed blogskin....
nobody to tok to now....
reading ppl's blog....
feeling so lonley....
coz everybpdy seem to be having fun....
i'm starting to be sad coz school's over....
the dayas in school...
was so memorable....
couldn't 4get them....
it's like yeasteraday was p1 regisatration....
today is p6 graduation....

my heart is kinda shattered...

it's so low now....
everything seems so low....
scared everyday....
how is secondary life going to be the same?
more work....
fiercer teachers....
everything will be different....
just hope to talk to someone now....
so bored and forlorn....
i hope there's still school....
for everything sundays,
i always longed for the next day....
monday
coz school starts at that day....
missin all my friends...
feel like i could die....

i'm really sick of that feeling....
it's almost physical...
now i only wish that anybody can host anypaty for charity 6....

okay....
gotta go change the blog skin le.
hope you like it
:)
bye!

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7:32 PM

♥ Saturday, November 17, 2007

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today was the last day of ballet grade 6

it was an open class.

many parents came into the classroom.

i was kinda scared.

but who kaes.

i'm going skatin l8ter

with ellen and yi ern

but we still had lots of fun

sadly, other ppl couldn't go.

but anyways, on next thurday, which is results day, i could go play basketball form 5 to 7 pm

pikah going with me

according to genevieve, it's held at bukit timah cc

the one near our school

i dunno whether can go or not.

mybe if my result are damm lousy, cannot go.

pls....

i hpoe my results are ok.

i really dunno which school to go.

i'll probably go the 1 which i can jst make it into.

but wad if i get sth like 233?

can't imagine anything!

i cna't imagine i'm leaving charity 6?

sometimes i'm quite sad.

but sometimes i'm not

life has to go on.

dun remember the past, and dun even think abt the past#

that''s y i'm not sad.

coz i dun think of it.

or maybe, i sad finish le

lols

i think someppl will knoew wad it means.

anyways, ellen does.

so you can ask her

kks

got to go, i wish i could post more, but i have to go.

so....
bye!

oh and btw

today, i finally got my own room.

yays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2:47 AM

♥ Thursday, November 15, 2007

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today last day of school

so weird

i'm not sad at all....

wad's wrong with me....

i lost my heart or sth?

i totally dun feel anything...

omg...

so heartles...

so....er....

today is the last day of school

and we had a prefects party which i dun think a lot ppl wanted to attend.

they all wanted to be with thier classmates including me....

but we still were forced to stay in the canteen and wait for the bloody pizza

then clement and shawn came into the canteen

it's obvious that they wanted to play basketball.

so genevieve who is sitting beside me ask if i wanted t play basketball and i agreed.

i also dragged valerie and pika along.

so played

i am the defender

a while later xavier joined in.

he's p5 from chrarity, a prefect(to ppl not from charity:i know you must be groaning coz u ppl hate charity6!!!!!!!!!)

xavier and i are not in the same team

so i was tackling him

then i got the ball and anyhow throw coz if i hold too long xavier will snatch the ball

and i dun really like drbbling the ball

i'm not really the one who always throw into the net.

coz me aiming sux when i am ruuning

so i always throw to clemnt or shawn.

coz usually they are the ones near the net

otherwise i throw to genevieve

prisca , same as me is the defender.

coz our aiming sux

and after that, according to prisca,

wy was not happy for dunno wad reason, soi shawn went to the other team.

so things are kinda difficult

coz i got confused when shawn threw the ball into OUR net.

anyways, had bnn a great defender

when i finished, my face was so red.

coz my blood circulation ain't that good.

look like tomato.

and was sweating all over.

anyways, so that was how it was to be in a competition.

it was a realy fun sport

it was my 1st basketl game, sadly it's also the last.

sobs

listeing to "things i'll never say"by Avril LAvigne

it's also a nice song
i think i'll never get tired of it like i did with sker boi.

ok. bye everyone from charity6... will miss ya all a lot

sobs

bye!:)

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5:49 AM

♥ Wednesday, November 14, 2007

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there 's a class party today....

everybody shld know rite?

and there's also the basketball tournament...

and then there's a swensens treat from keisha.

and then there's a movie, the game plan.

whoa.....

ok let's just sart from the very beginning of the day....

in the mornin, it's just a lot of playing and writing of autographs....

then keish and i played speed then snap.

and then, the bpoys were playing truth and dare AGAIN....

i hate truth and dare....

the truth is always ask ppl who they like and the dare is always tell a girl or boy that you love he or she....

kinda lame....

then the class party was like a little food and s many tibits....

i was like so full, coz teacher force us to eat.

and byt ehn i found that my camera had ran out of battery.

so i promised tat today must charge fully b4 bringng it to school

then after dat, keish, belle, pris, min yi and i went to swensens. and we had icecream for lunch....
pathetic...

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5:04 AM

♥ Tuesday, November 13, 2007

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While i was playing yahoo games, i suddenly remembered that i had to bring drinks tomolo....
then i asked my mum if she can go to the NTUC near our house.
My sis is watching tv in the living room
my mum was like groaning, she was not willing to go..
then i was like pleading her

then my sister who is 19 this year was like

"你自己去啦" mind you, wespeak chinese at home

i was like like

"shuddupt la, you onli want ot use the com "

i said that in english, then she went quiet.

i wun be this bad to her if she hadn't been this bad to me....

i'm just like a rabbit,O_Olll

rabbits rmb it wen you treat them cruely,

that is wad my rabbit is like

but if you pat it, or give it a treat, like a carrot(or even chocolate)

it would forget abt it.

anyways, i was kinda felt very bad, kinda blaming my family members(except for my dad, he's in china)

then i went in to my mom's room, took the 5o dollars on the bed and went off

or was it a 5 dollar not, coz i didin't see properaly, i just gave it a quick glance and stuff it in my pocket without even knowing!

i'm supposedto just buy 6 packets of drinks, theni thought i would be nice to buy ectra incase

some ppl drink more, so i spend the next 15 min or so browsing at the different varities of

drinks on the shelf, then i finally bought 2 packets of drinks, i when to the cashier and whipped

out that miserable 5 dollars.

i was like wat?!

the cashier was of coz:"sorry miss, not enough"

i told her to wait becoz i going home t take more money....

so i went home lah...

then came back again, by then i was like so drenched....

i need to post another time le
bye ppl!

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5:10 AM

♥ Saturday, November 10, 2007

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YOU GOTTA SEE THIS 2 VIDEO CLIPS.....

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then after that they cover me eith blanket cos they say i might be cold..
well yea..
itis kind cold
just like a fridge
then there are like so many doc
got 3 from china
i thin are trainees
the 2 who are like ppl whotok to me
1 is doing the op.
another 1 is watcing how she do and learning
then when they inject, i cried.
seriously! it's worst than ant bite!
then after 4 times, they wiped away my tears since i couldn't twich at all!
ok, now i adding the pictures...
w8t

(waiting for the operation, got tired of my mum taking pictrures so i look so glum...reading harvey angell)

(mum says the background so nice, wanna take picture...
dia0. this is the pathetic suite...)

(there are so many of these big bean baged on the floor....hmmm... squishy! see that red band on my wrist?the nurse put that oon my hand. dunno if for all the day surgery they do that.then the white colour thing on my hand is a type of cream which numbs the skin, so that injections wun be pain.... but it's still painful... wah....)

( Another type of bean bag....looks like the one in computer lab huh?but just it's red and black and a lot bigger....)

mum taking pictures from across the room... i forced a smile... wasn't in the mood...)

(i looks so sacarstic... coz implaying baby toys!!!!!!!!!!it's fun though....i like to watch the beads...hahahahaha)

( a doctor came and let me wear this pathetic....sighs....but i'm still smiling hahaha:)

then i was sent into the operation room, can't take pivtures ther....
so.... i jumped to after the operation...

(look at that arm.... the tumour is gone! but it hurts... the doc put a bandage around it so it could prevent the wound from bleeding. finally, after let's see....from 12am to 11.38am....11 hours 38 min, i finally could eat! yay!boy, i was so hungry....still wearing the pathetic suite....)

yay, waiting for daddy at the 1st level, waiting to go out again! so happy!and as you can see i finally took out the red thigy, it was so tight!

b4 we go, mum took another picture of me, the background is the garden in kk hospital

then i'm free! yay!!!!!!!!!!!

the picture, of the next day, i couldn't really dance, cos my arm hurts a lot when i move it

yays! bye everybody! if you are having operation next time, be brave!bye:)

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1:08 AM

♥ Friday, November 9, 2007

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hi guys....

i just finished eating mc donalds and using the computer now...

i just had my operation....

i just went to school and came back.....

i just did so many things....

the most memorable thing is that i had my operation

ok.... ellen's at my hse now coz we are going to tll this is the 2nd time in 2 months

i did becoz she was so angry that i didn't come....
so i thought i would just do sth nice for her.....
ok maybe she's not that angyr...
just upset...

haha(not funny)
online blog indeed is so widely read by others...
the day after i posted that i am going to have an operation....

so mny tagged at mi blog and said gd luck....

unfortunately....

(embarrassed to say)

i was stuffing myself with food.

although i'm so bloated that i thought i might burst,

i was FORCED eat.....

becoz after 12am, i can onli drink milo

and after 4.3oam i can onli drink water

and after 7.15am, sad....

i cannot do anything....

i didn't eat anything until exactly 11.38

(becoz i was conscious of the time)

anyways....
read done to see the procedure of the operation...
you know what i hate most rite?
taking injections....
before i took the injections, the doctor put someti=hing on my skin so that when i take injection, it wun be painful
but unfortuantely, for my skin it stil was painful ...
it depends you know.
for some ppl , taking injections is not a big deal...
but for me it is extra painful...
last time when i was a toddler, i ha to take injections everyday cos i got allergy.
it wasn't painful at all last time whn i took all those injections...
sad

before my operation, a nurse came to me and gave me a set of clothes.
the 1 st "gown" must wear from in front
and the 2nd must wear from the back.
then when i went out of the changing, room, the nurse said i wore wrongly
the 1st one i wore from the back and the 2nd one i wore from the front
hahax
then i ha to change again, which took another 1o min,
which is one of the reasons why i didn't make it to school,
after i changed, iv walked in to the preparation room,
the room that children are supposed to go b4 they take their surgery
theni w8ted for abt 30 min....
i wasn't scared that time...
all i was thinking was to go to school....i actually didn't want to miss the ipp...
i thought it might be fun....
i know i'm wierd....
so wad?
anyway, on the way to kk hospital, preacher willy msged me and blessed me also.
i asked how was the ipp going?
then he said he was with ch6
so i called and told him to say hello for me to you guys...
then he said hello rite?
then you guys ask yy i not here.
then some of the ppl say i got operation.
they ask me y
then i told preach willy that i will tell you guys when igo school....
i'm so sorry...
so sorry that i didn't go school
pls forgive me...
anyways, then you guys went to the hall...
so sad...
i miss you guys....
1 week le...
back to the operation ...
yes i was still waiting. then i got so tired that i stared playing the toys that were actually meant for babies....
lame rite?

ok then after all the photo taking, the playing, i just sat on the sofa and tried to sleep

coz i slept at 12.3o pm the day b4 just to eat

so i wun be hungry...

indeed i wasn't hungry

so finally, a lady wearing the same pathetic suit gave me another same pathetic

"showering cap"

then i went in.

i was like bye bye mummy

all with the smiles

when i went through the door i was like oh god...

then i went into the operation room

oh man it was is BIG!

and so many weapons.....

bbbr.....

ok anyways, they covered me with a paper sheet
coz they say cotton wool might catch fire if they is any...
theni was like fire? omg! i wanna go out!
then they put iodine on my right hand, they theywipe it off.
i read in a book that before operation, they must put on iodine to kill the bacteria

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12:13 AM

♥ Thursday, November 8, 2007

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last post before i sign off
today...
i'm not as sad as yeasterday.....
tommorow is the big day....
can't eat after 12am....
i'm so scared....
ppl....
ppray for me pls.....
you know the doctor says if sth goes wrong my life would be at risk....
well...
i hope that every thing goes well...
i dun wanna die ....
for a million reasons....
ok everybody....
hope you like mi blog....
i just spend 2 hours enhancing it....
i hope you really do appreciate it....
thanx:)

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12:12 AM

♥ Wednesday, November 7, 2007

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yesterday went to kinokuniya with belinda....
i went to her hse in the morning 1st coz my mum and her mum going out and "play"
so i had to go toher hse....
or rather i want to go her hse...
hehe
i finally mustered my courage to touch her baby german sheperd -lucky
it's damn big....
but it's afraid of hoola hoops....
hahax
and itlikes me coz it obeys my rules....
not belinda's
until i splased water on it....
he hates water....
haha
sorry lucky!

anyways.... we went to kinokuniya in takashimaya...
while our mums went window shopping...
we stayed there from zbt 1.30pm to 4.30pm
and i spent $49.81
on for books....
namely princess diaries books 6 and 7 , kira- kira, and havey angell-watt is he?
so ex rite?
i not that rich la....
family kinda got financial problems rite now...
but dun worry....
i wun die of hunger...
i can save money anyways....
dun pity me(if you are)
i dun like ppl who sympathise for me...
it makes me feel that i can't be independent

last time i was a student of media corp....
but i quit....
and gave up the chance of being an actress....
which i want to be...
it's really fun there....
but the fees are so ex...
wad do you expect anyways....

anyways.....
it's early in the morning now...(wheni typed this msg)
nobody is onilne.....
so sads....
feel lonely again
sighs...
have to go le...

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5:20 PM

♥ Tuesday, November 6, 2007

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i dunno why....
that feeling of lone just sticks to me like glue

i know wadeva i write here ppl will read....
and if i write too detailed....
ppl will laugh and tease....
a blog is a place where most ppl tend to shoot themselves in the feet
and becoz of that....

i am not going to write all detailed.....
sighs....
operation on friday....
sighs...

i'm so scared....
so alone...
i feel like nobody cares abt me....
nobody knows that i even exist

crying a lone in a corner....
wepting to nobody....
feeling the cold knife stab in my heart again and again....
torn between terror and forlorn

i want to tell you that i miss you so much....

but you dun seem to matter...

so i'll just be stong....

and stand this storm by myself...

until the sea calms down...

those painful memories will be washed away....

but sometimes they just etched onto my heart.....

somebody....pls come and help me.... help me to steal my heart away....

(just kidding)

you dun evern care that i am going to have an operation....

while i struggle....

you enjoy your time with your friends....

sighs....

operation is in the morning

so i cannot go for ipp....

i wanna go....

dun wanna miss anything fun with charity 6....

i am really going to miss school....

miss everybody....

i feel so un significant.....

so small......

so scared.....

preparing for the big day......

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7:09 PM

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