i dunno why....
that feeling of lone just sticks to me like glue


i know wadeva i write here ppl will read....
and if i write too detailed....
ppl will laugh and tease....
a blog is a place where most ppl tend to shoot themselves in the feet
and becoz of that....
i am not going to write all detailed.....
sighs....
operation on friday....
sighs...

i'm so scared....
so alone...
i feel like nobody cares abt me....
nobody knows that i even exist

crying a lone in a corner....
wepting to nobody....
feeling the cold knife stab in my heart again and again....
torn between terror and forlorn


i want to tell you that i miss you so much....

but you dun seem to matter...

so i'll just be stong....

and stand this storm by myself...

until the sea calms down...

those painful memories will be washed away....

but sometimes they just etched onto my heart.....

somebody....pls come and help me.... help me to steal my heart away....

(just kidding)

you dun evern care that i am going to have an operation....

while i struggle....

you enjoy your time with your friends....

sighs....

operation is in the morning

so i cannot go for ipp....

i wanna go....

dun wanna miss anything fun with charity 6....

i am really going to miss school....

miss everybody....

i feel so un significant.....

so small......

so scared.....

preparing for the big day......